sister wives & embroidery

there i was, coffee in hand this morning, scrolling across HBO max programs, when i see on the top 10 list "Sister Wives." it. is. BACK. i've got six new episodes to binge watch. i started a new embroidery project and i'm finally understanding these instructions and stitching...new adhd hobby conquered maybe?

i've been having a creative block when it comes to songwriting. i think a lot of it is how harshly i'm critiquing myself now, how i'm trying to one-up myself and write better. choose better producers to work with. choose better beats. every time i google "how to get over creative block" i get the same advice from reddit over and over again: "don't force it. leave and go do other things. let the inspiration come to you." but i wanna sing! i wanna songwrite! i want to focus more on my vocal abilities and get better at recording and mixing them.

i'm trying to really relish in the present moment. i know one day soon i'll be onto cookin' babies in my body, with priorities shifting and less time to blog. to game. to vibe alone. it'll be beautiful! but i need to remember and love the now so that i can really enjoy what i have THEN, too.

i guess that's it. i felt called to blog. babe and i are going to disneyland soon!! i can't wait for my package of disney items/disney ears to come to i can start packing and planning lol! i'm going to eat my heart out. last time i went to disney i was poor, very depressed and working there in property tax lol. this time is different. i am finally alive, and having my hersband by my side i've been able to have so many fun experiences and really LIVE.

hope all is well babes

<3

janet