to my real fans

to my real fans, 

the ones who might have me on social media but really how would i ever know? the ones who listen to me on spotify monthly, about 300 of you; the ones who send me cute messages and are supporting my music and listening and relating and adding it to the soundtrack of their life:

i don't know how enough how to express how grateful i am for you. a bunch of strangers who see the light in me, in a world i feel everyone is just judging each other and where support is hard to find. i hope that you love a few of the songs, that you can relate. i know i jump genres around in the pop space, and that's probably due to my listening habits and the way i love so many kinds of music, and then seem to navigate my way back to the pop song structure, because i LOVE how it fits, how it just tastes like endless ear candy.

i listen back to some of my songs, and they could be mixed better...rerecorded, but i'll leave them. i am growing and learning, and i am getting better with each song, i like to think anyway lol. i really truly am a one-woman show in this, i have always been, so i hope you can see beyond the imperfections and still relate and love the music.

this music is the soundtrack of my life. maybe a little jumpy in terms of timeline, but i'm getting the diary and story of who i am out in music...and i think i always will!! even when i'm old and gray :)

i hope when you listen, and fall in like or love with the tunes i'm sending out into the universe, you know that i'm in your corner, i am your friend. i grew up in such a lonely atmosphere, and music was my way to acceptance, to finding my place in this world. i hope i can be that for someone out there, and if you are out there, if the numbers and plays i see are real (i loooove to gaslight myself lmfao), then i KNOW someone is listening.

i wrote "nobody's listening" feeling so defeated, but i look at this now without defeat. i won already. i have a lot of love floating my way.

i hope you have the beautiful life you deserve always. thank you for believing in me.

<3

Janet