"Hard work beats talent when talent doesn't work hard" I had some time before my date today to get in the studio and really go IN on recording for my EP "Black Sheep." I spent HOURS in there on Trophy...and ended up with an almost finished version! I learned today that... I need to stop distracting myself. I need to really commit to this every day. Every day just for an hour; if I can commit to my dance and teaching dance classes, I can commit to the thing that got me to want to dance in the FIRST place... I am committing to, even on my most exhausted days, studio time. I learned that with time, practice, energy spent...my mixing and mastering skills are getting better. My studio habits are improving. I had a candle lit, got into my comfies, tied my hair up, and adjusted the mic and headphones until I felt comfortable. I did take after take after take after take. I officially learned today I am pop with some r&b/soul influence, who loves a pop/rock song now and then. I love to create all types of music, though, and would love to dabble in it all. This is all I want to do. I am so happy, I am so fulfilled. I spent the time today, and it shows. I am so much closer, and I began distribution steps. Will it be perfect? Perfect to me. Perfect enough for my ears. I think over time you'll see my (rapid) growth. I'm excited for what's to come and I'm excited for my life. I'm ready. I really know I'm going to make it. :) I've been working all up to this. In other news... My girlfriend got a login for Disney+ (shoutout to my former employer), so I've been binge watching the Zenon movies! Right now I'm watching YouTube videos after taking my makeup off, but I'm in the middle of Zenon the Zequel. I used to love these movies! Looking back, the acting is pretty awful and cringey, but I also love it for the nostalgia/reminder of my childhood. I saw the above infographic and really loved it! I preach self-love all the time (I even made a display at work: join the "Self-Love" club) and held a dance intensive in October called the Sultry Self-Love Intensive. Putting these practices to play really has improved my mindset and helped improve my depression tremendously! This blog was a long stream of consciousness. I'm going to conclude with answering a cute lil' about me survey! I'm going to sound super old-school and "tag all of you." Do this in any capacity you wish! <3 xoxo Janet 1. Tea or coffee? I love them both! Coffee in a sugary frappe. Tea a lil sweetened and not so herby.
2. Salty or sweet? Salty 3. Last book you read? Hmm..I honestly don't remember! I try to read a few books a year though. Maybe a self-help book or Orange is the New Black. 4. Shopping online or in the flesh? Online and in the flesh! I like them both but mostly online. 5. Best blogging/writing/social media advice you’ve ever given or received? Stop caring about what anyone thinks of your art. 6. Cupcake or ice cream? Both...I yam indecisive 7. Name one thing you regret? I don't regret anything 8. Ideal Sunday morning? Hot chocolate, pups, and my girlfriend 9. Vacation destination: Mountains or beach Beach! Or mountains if we have a cabin. Mostly beach. (Did I mention I am indecisive?) 10. What are you most proud of? My home :) my dance classes, my job, and my music 11. Favorite type of bagel? cheese with jalapeño 12. Who would you most want to be stuck in an elevator with? My girlfriend 13. Most important quality in a friend? Be kind to others and support your peers! 14. What you would most want to change about yourself? When I am critical of myself, I can be mean. 15. Talent you wish you had? Acting 16. Biggest fear? Losing the ones I love + my pups 17. Number #1 on your Bucket List? Travel! And become a famous singer :) 18. What side of the bed do you sleep on? I'm indecisive! At my home, the right side (the left if you are looking at the bed) 19. Men: Boxers or briefs? Not a man, but I love boxers lol 20. Women: The one beauty/makeup item you can’t live without? Mascara! 21. One word that describes you best? Ambitious
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I love date nights with my girlfriend. She and I will choose a spot, and if we are especially broke that week, we will try to take advantage of cheap movie nights at certain local theaters or very cheap happy hours! I've found one at a chain I love down the street from my home, and a super cheap one at this hookah lounge a few exits away. Bowling is also a cheap date idea! My girlfriend is a nursing student and reliant on the G.I. Bill and her job, and I have my job that honestly doesn't pay diddly squat (I love it doe), so at the moment we can't splurge as much unless we save/go out closer to payday. The point of me explaining this is...even though we are not in our ideal, tip-top circumstances, we make it work! If we are so absolutely positively fucking broke, I love a dollar store trip. Broker than that? We just cook whatever we got at home, play some board games or paint/do crafts together, and watch Netflix/Hulu/insert-streaming-service-here. It's important to really spend time together outside of the bedroom and outside of us seeing each other at our work environments. As much as I want to jump her (hehehe...sorry not sorry) every second, I need to take time in the kitchen with her cooking, or in the living room, or doing yard work together...I really cherish those moments and we talk about so much and learn so much about each other! I am so thankful I found my one and only. I am so grateful to have someone who loves me the way she does. I can only hope that every person gets to feel this sort of mutual love! She makes me feel like I can accomplish anything in life.
Date nights are important. Whether it's month 3, year 1.5, year 5, or year 45, I think I will always want/need occasional date nights. I need to go out with my babe, feel spoiled, feel like I'm in a damn movie, and eat food/dessert with the woman I love and get to stare at all night because she's the most beautiful human being in the whole world. Then, we get to go home and cuddle with the pups! Watch TV, kiss, do other tings (heh)...I love and cherish every date night. I truly believe they help rejuvenate our love life in a new way each time. I hope y'all begin incorporating this into your lives! Swipey swipe. ;) --Jay-Z “I have tried to drink this pain away, I am finally starting to break the cycle. I usually wake up before my closing shifts, keep pressing snooze until about 2:30pm, and then I finally drag myself to the bathroom and begin to shower and get ready for work. NOT. TODAY. I have a morning motivation playlist playing on Spotify, I grabbed the tea I made fridge (cold brew coconut chai iced green tea), and made breakfast. I'm at my dining table, which is clean because I took the time to clean it yesterday, and then I'm going to stretch for the day, and then get ready for work. I need to take the trash out...which is going to be...incredibly heavy...but I BELIEVE. I started decorating for the holidays inside of my home! I went to the dollar store to see if they had any cute decor for the OUTSIDE of my home...but everything is either too small or too flimsy. :( Looks like I'll have to invest more if I want to decorate the outside of my house, LOL. My HOA emailed me a list of the paint colors I can choose from when it comes to painting the outside of my home; I need to go get the little swatches and see which ones I like best! I want to pick a day when me and Beck are just chillin' at home. I have this little flip book that revolves around the "Law of Attraction" and has little daily teachings; it challenged me today to write down 100 things I am grateful for today. 100. 100! I'm going to go make my list and make it very decorative. With Lisa Frank stickers. Honestly, though, if you aren't treating yourself with extreme kindness and compassion at every moment of every day, you're doing yourself a big disservice. Me included. I need to start committing to breaking the cycle and doing this EVERY day. Every day I wake up, I have to treat that day like it's my last. I have to operate with love in everything I do. I don't do that currently, but the verbiage I'm using, "have to," is true if I ever want to successfully beat my depression into such a pulp that it never finds enough life to grow again. I am currently listening to this playlist curated by Spotify (if you click the button above, it should take you to it!) and it's putting me in the most wonderful mind-state.
I'm off to go write my list of 100 things I'm grateful for! You should do the same ;) <3 Janet "I think I'm gonna stay home" - John Mayer, "Home Life" I am so, so sick of my iPhone. I remember a time where it cost too much money to send a text message...now, everyone is able to text each other with no limit. I get to my phone and I'll have 50+ iMessages/texts. And yet...it always seems that it's because I'm always there for people/a convenient friend to reach out to. I tend to not really reach out to others with my problems, because they seem so small in comparison to those out there that are homeless etc. I always do that, I always bottle them in. But my "friends" aren't always there for me, nor do I trust they won't turn around and totally air my dirty laundry out to anyone we know mutually. It's rough, I have trust issues to work through, clearly. Today, I finally just took a day. My phone is still not next to me, and to be real, it likely won't be until I head to work tomorrow. I have a separate phone I refer to as my burner (looool) that my sister and girlfriend have access to; it's my Los Angeles phone number, and you won't really be able to reach me otherwise. I needed a detox; a complete detox. Away from gluing my face to the stupid iPhone. I have a life to live. A home to clean. Music to record. Art to make. Puppies to love. Cupcakes to bake. You get it. Now Playing: John Mayer - "Heavier Things"(yeah, yeah, go ahead and laugh whilst you drink that Haterade©) I just watched this YouTube video and I want to make this chocolate candy cane pie! I would just need to get an electric mixer, and a deeper pie dish. I'm considering filming myself trying to follow this video and seeing if it turns out good...if you'd be interested in that, let me know below! :) I went to the dollar store earlier and bought some bellyflop jelly beans, so I'm going to drink my tea, munch on a few of these, and watch some DIYs before I head into the studio to record. What else should I blog about? <3 Leave all suggestions in a comment! xoxo <3 <3 MJ |
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